Sep 7, 2009
I love mornings. When the house is quiet, Madie has finally settled down after her "morning routine" of meowing, hubby still asleep, and the sun just pouring through the studio windows. I have my hazelnut coffee and researching what Etsy has to offer. I'm overwhelmed.
For the last six months I've been planning a wedding and all the jazz that goes along with it. Everything pretty much hand made, wedding favors, center pieces, programs, everything...made by me and those closest to me. Where is this rant going? I'm behind, way behind in my business. I have always felt behind in my business...like there has always been something missing. But what?! For the researching and studying I've done I can't figure out what I'm skipping. Of course, anyone how knows me smirks because I start projects (big ones outside of painting) just great, but can never keep them going. That's gotta change, seriously. But then, how do I change that behavior?
I get overwhelmed with how much you have to do! Community, blog, FaceBook, post, relist, website to maintain, mail outs, THEN you gotta log, pay bills, finance, budget...all things my brain just can't wrap around...on top of everything else. Oh, did I forget to mention paint and sketch daily?
I feel behind and exhausted and it's not even 10am. I've been awake for only an hour and a half and I'm ready to go back to bed. My heart and mind is just fluttering with excitement to get started back on track with life and with my business. Only, I want to do everything all at once and don't know where to start.
I'm almost thirty and I've been on this path for five years...thinking it'd be something a bit more by now. Aww....I'm not moping...seriously I'm not. It's motivation to get my toosh into gear!
One of the questions probing my mind is "What's my niche?" I have always wondered that. There are so many directions I can go in, and most of the time try to, but I wear myself thin. So what's my niche? I've always struggled with this question since college...sophomore year. By junior year it seemed like all of the fellow friends and illustrators had found their niche. Mine...well I do a lot of fantasy art so I guess I'll do licensing. Um...ya...don't mind a bit of licensing but it's a sticky business to be into. Plus it's a slow one. There are children books from my past that I just adored. Heavy into detail fantasy paintings with simple text for the child to read. I got so lost into those books. But when I started to go into children's book illustration I feared that my work wasn't quite what publishers wanted...so I started drawing cute animals. I LOVE drawing cute animals, but I also LOVE painting fantasy.
--_-- crossroad again.
I'm processing out loud because if I don't I loose it all, and hopefully something comes of this writing frenzy. What do I have that others need? Light? Love? Hope? Joy? Why would someone buy a piece of artwork? Hum...
So much to think about.